Sometimes when stress overpowers me I get clouded with self destructive thoughts. Googling up almost every possible ways to make it easier . But in the end I get stuck with only two options.

Firstly , give up the thoughts for the time being. So that when life throws worst situations at me i have better options in hand. Honestly I don't have the right or the guts to hurt my mother. ( i love her the most).Ssshh ! don't tell my father ( I love him too)!

Secondly, encouraging myself as not being a coward and taking the help of su***de helpline numbers, usually the toll-free ones (who is going to spend money for these stuff - I think to myself) . But the funny part of these helpline numbers are that they are either always out of network or busy. So here I am waiting for someone to convince me that i am strong, wilfull, confident and can't lose the battle named LIFE.
© copycat