I'm sitting on my wooden stool
Drawing doodles on your skin
With the mini cutter, pink
I see you tighten your fist with eyes full of tears
Holding pain, I think

Pain?
Aaah, pain on your skin is nothing compares to the pain I feel
It's been ages but still my hearts is full of grudges
Mind is filled with revenge
I hate everytime the memory of his betrayal  strikes back
Chase and bury the joyful memories of him, when he was mine only

Some irregular patterns are awfully drawn on your smooth belly skin
Wish I could flay and dry it under the sun and told to the world that I won
Well, it's just some cuts, baby
You'll still be fine, don't worry

I can hear your scream from your duct taped mouth
Is that the way you moan that makes him fall?
Is that your seducing words that makes him stay around?
I hate when all those imagination comes to mind
Hate him, hate you, I hate everyone

A half glass of lemonade and pour it onto the doodles that I've created on your skin
I enjoy how your body shivering in pain
I hear you're begging sorry
Sorry for what?
Sorry won't change my story

I take eight bricks
And fill the backpack with stones as well
I tie two bricks on every leg and arm of yours
Place the backpack on your chest, tie it tight
So tight, I don't care if you're suffocated

I pull your body to the lake behind my hut
Kicking you hard
I see your trying to escape as I drag you to the middle of the lake
But those bricks bring you down deeper to the bottom
Some bubbles appear as you're drowning
And disappear after few minutes

Still, I can remember how I found mom was motionless with those pills in her hand
She couldn't accept dad's affair with you, my so called best friend,
And still chose you over us
I'm glad knowing he spends his life alone with alzheimer, dying in loneliness

I take some pebbles and throw them to the lake
Sitting and laughing full of satisfaction
"Mom, we're done"
"Take me now if you want a companion"
I make a cut, deeper than usual,  right on my vein
Maybe this the last
I know, soon my mom will take me with her
As I'm closing my eyes
And find peace that eventually comes


© luki

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