Knowing none of us ended on the best of terms
Wishing you the best on this fine evening
To chase your dreams
To climb that hill
To go over that mountain
I'll miss you all
Just know I truly loved you guys
You I loved
Him as a friend
You as a sister
And when you said that's how you saw me
It was a knife to the heart
Like how could I just not respond to you anymore?
How could I wish harm over you?
But how can I stay connected to you at the same time?
How can I?
How can I do this?
How can I go through days not remembering birthdays?
Not remembering details
Since we really were friends
Even though I do fall into the trap of being too nice
Letting those take advantage of me
Push me around
Treat me as trash of the earth

All I hope is that this finds you well
That you conquer all your fears
Cry all your tears
So that you don't end up like me
With them all gone
Hoping you find a passion
Hoping you forget me on the way
If you haven't already
Hoping you find another
Hoping you see everything you've always wanted to see
Hope you're loved by the people you've always wanted in your life
Hope someone comes along and walks along beside you
Hope someone gives you that hug I can't give
Hope someone asks about how you're really feeling inside
Hope someone cares for you even when you push them away
Hope someone sees you
Hope someone tells you you're enough
You're doing a wonderful job
If you put your mind to it
Yes in fact you'll go places
Hoping you notice the people who care for you
And the people who are right beside you but don't care for you
Hoping you make real friends
Hoping you find that girl of your dreams
Hoping you find that love you've always dreamed
Just to feel wanted
Just to feel special
Even if it's by betrayers of mine
Maybe you'll find them well
Unlike me
Since you're so loveable
So charming
Chase those dreams I know you have
Don't get confused
Don't look back
My friend
Or does that make you cringe
To think we were once friends
Once lovers
And for her once sisters
Just wishing the best for you all
Sticking to the straight path
Following God
Not feelings
Nor the heart
Since that's why we're here now
The heart
Is why
Just wishing the best for you
Coming from the heart
Knowing I loved and cared for you
I cared for you as a friend
Even though I had to leave you behind
I know you won't understand
So I wish you the best
As for the other
Leaving me for the best
As an answer to an unknown prayer
Hoping you'll forgive me for what you left me for
All which is still quite a mystery to me
Still seems to unfold
Questioning the truth of the matter
Questioning what's now right in front of me
Questioning everything since the beginning
Nothing ever felt right
So as I wish for you to find the one
And one for who shall care
I also wish to find the one of whoms love I'll never question
The one of whoms love doesn't speak as in word but in action
The one of whoms love doesn't scream love as it walks out the door
Leaving me on the bathroom floor
Wondering what's next
And why had this been God's answer to my secret prayer
Of which you didn't know
But now I think I know
Now I think I know why
And this settles the peace of the matter
The finality of this all
So I bless you on your way
And goodbye my friends
© Somehuman



Fri, May 3rd 10:08 PM 2024