You're always on my mind,
No matter what I do.
On any given day, or time,
I'm always stuck with you.

I am your loyal prisoner.
Many times I've tried to escape.
But my love for you is too strong,
Its some form of mental rape.

When you're not around,
I cant even get out of bed.
To you I am forever bound.
someday I fear they'll find me dead.

Let me just breathe you in,
Because I love the way you taste.
That's how it always begins,
My life has been such a waste.

I want to feel you flowing inside my veins.
And I don't want to feel anymore.
Cant wait until you hit my brain.
Because I'm a dopamine whore.

I'll do whatever I have to do to score.
Because I just cant live without you.
You've always been there for me,
So I have no reason to doubt you.

You have single handedly destroyed my life.
But that's not enough to keep me away.
I feel like I'm walking on a sharp knife.
Yet still I want you to stay.

Secretly I want to say goodbye,
And get my life straight.
Its not like i don't try.
But you just sit and watch and wait.

The minute I am feeling weak, or sad,
You're always nearby to save the day.
Its always when I start feeling bad,
That you decide to come my way.

I tell you no, but you don't care.
You just creep inside my mind.
You convince me how much I love you,
And assure me we will have a good time.

Before I know what hit me,
Again I've taken you back.
Im so comfortable in this misery,
You know how to make me crack.

Will you ever let me go?
So I can move on and do what I need to do.
I'm guessing the answer is probably no.
I'll be dead before I'm through.

Im so tired of fighting you.
You are definitely not a friend of mine.
But you just keep on sliding through
With the promise of a good time.

I know in my heart, I don't love you anymore.
But somehow I keep letting you in.
For so long you've been my comfort and support.
You've protected me within.

Its so hard to let you go,
But we really have to say our goodbyes.
Until you are gone, I cannot grow.
You cant keep stopping to say high.

I'm learning how to get over you,
With every failed attempt I make.
A brand new lesson is learned.
Not going to let you seal my fate.

Stay with me tonight if you must,
Give me this one last kiss.
I am banishing you forever
Sorry to say you wont be missed.  

© James L. Babcock Jr.