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who would have thought it would take ninteen years
ninteen years for me to realize
i needed pills
for my mind too be stabillized.
and how fucked up is it
that the psychiatrist willingly gives meds
to a suicidal soul
i dont have to look further
than my kitchen counter
to overdose
i dont understand
how my mind can be so broken
until one tiny yellow pill taken every twenty four hours
kicks in
and we are still working on it
finding the right amount
of pills i need to stuff myself with
not to think about death
how many more months
years
is it going to take?
for me to feel moderatly okay?
so i take a yellow pill every night at 7 55
my alarm says take your pills lovely person
i dont feel lovely
i feel broken
i fell less than whole
is my skin going to turn yellow
from all the pills i swallow?
© infinite
ninteen years for me to realize
i needed pills
for my mind too be stabillized.
and how fucked up is it
that the psychiatrist willingly gives meds
to a suicidal soul
i dont have to look further
than my kitchen counter
to overdose
i dont understand
how my mind can be so broken
until one tiny yellow pill taken every twenty four hours
kicks in
and we are still working on it
finding the right amount
of pills i need to stuff myself with
not to think about death
how many more months
years
is it going to take?
for me to feel moderatly okay?
so i take a yellow pill every night at 7 55
my alarm says take your pills lovely person
i dont feel lovely
i feel broken
i fell less than whole
is my skin going to turn yellow
from all the pills i swallow?
© infinite
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