We used to make love every night. I miss those nights when it was intimate and just right. You looked me in the eyes and kept me safe. When we were together, I knew everything would be okay. But after a while, the sex became less and less. I was struggling because I was feeling a mess. We'd argue each and every single day. All my life I had people calling me bisexual and gay. You used to be the one I called my lover. Until the truth came out and everything was uncovered. I miss the person I called my best friend. I'm just scared that our relationship would end. We used to have amazing sex every night. When we made love, everything always felt right. We barely talk when we see each other. But when we do, I stopped seeing you as a lover. It took me a while to be in the same with you again. We started talking and I started seeing you as my best friend. I held your hand and you held mine. And then we had sex and the sex was everything divine. I looked you deep in your eyes. And when I did, something in both of us arise. You allowed me to be closer to you. In that moment, I knew that you loved me too. We started going out and had date nights and I knew that I couldn't live without you. I knew that I loved you and you loved me too. The day you gave me your heart and your soul, I got on my knees and I proposed. I thank you for loving me through the highs and the lows. Your love got me through when I was feeling alone. When I'm with you, I feel safe at home. When the world was judging me, you were right there by my side. You were there for me and never judged me when I cried. I started loving you again. The love of a lover and my best friend. I looked you deep in the eyes and I knew I have to be with you. I knew that I want you and you want me too. I also knew that you're meant for me. It took me a long time to see that this is how things should be. When we make love, I feel a spiritual connection with you I haven't had in a while. I miss seeing that sexy smile. You have a smile that makes me blush every time. So many people think that us being together must be a sign. I got my lover and my best friend once again. This time, I know that our relationship won't end. We've been through counseling, therapy and everything to keep us together. I'm willing to do the work because I want you and I can see my life being with you forever and ever. I'm writing these words to inspire someone out there to know that they'll be okay. When it comes to your love and your trust, that's something that I won't ever betray.





© Josiah Bhola Hillaire