work begins tomorrow which will not allow me stay home, care for family i do, quit smoking meth, I have though everyday it is hard, marijuana have not smoked in over a week and continue car does not move without keys so how am to sell? spoken to love for minds and heart sake she is ok cannot write everyday I do music and practice patience is process but progress achieving is there more...? pray every night for life and blessings, temperance practice of frustrations with meditation and give with out expectations but still have no clue what God is asking me to do smile and laugh though it is hard with knowledge of loves fate forgive I have for I do not know when I will ever see her eyes and feel her beating heart once more. suicide still loomes for blood on my hands guilt resides still for wrong dings though they cannot be undone, ask for forgiveness is do with whole heart to Allah always for my sins and of those I am not aware of prospectively...though all this is being done trials still served on full plate and yet I continue, to what end only I ask? to loves end? to my end? to family, or world end and without expectations as does my name im listening with ears heart mind and soul but still do not understand for under it stand is there simplicity's where under it stood so all can be understood?
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