#Dust

#Yuck



#Numb


#Days

#Moods


#Pain





I don't think I can take it's all becoming to much on one hand that's how I really do feel now on the other I just want to heal to wipe off all the dust of yesterday and before then and throw it into the dumpster shut it start again slowly brushing off anything holding me down figuring out how to slowly wipe off all the dust there's something you must know when I say dust I'm covered in it and I mean ptsd anxiety depression and helping people I shouldn't have been helping I hope I finally learned my lesson but to truth sometimes I don't want to throw all of this away sometimes my mood about all switches up day by day sometimes I know this is crazy but I kinda wanna hold all this pain with me I know it amazes me to that I do but other times I want it all to go away because sometimes it holds me down from getting up for the day and making my way from being safe because I'm not caring and yes that can be worrysome because someday I like numb but others I feel I need all my stress and struggles buried more than ten feet under some days
I just don't don't want to feel anything negative or any hatred for any of these I just wanted it all brushed off so I'm not in a slump feeling like my scar even the ones you can't see are filled with rust