before we started dating, when we were friends. you asked me if I'm down bad for my crush. I said yes and wrote a few lines saying I love them. And now, I think I might be able to expand my thoughts a bit-

down bad?
I think I might be ♡

Im here at almost 5am. And I cant sleep. Not because of paranoia or because I have a lot of energy, but just because I hear their voice. They're whispering into my ear, saying they love me ♡ let me keep that bliss and turn it into a hope that one day it'll come true ♡
I keep imagining when I see them, I keep imagining that little downward smile they do when they see me smile like an absolute fool.
I keep hearing them call my name. I hear it all the time, and it never fades, it always returns.
I keep dreaming of them. No matter sweet and less sweet dreams, they're always there. No matter the dream, whether it be about friends family or random stuff, they are always there. It's like that in reality too, they're always there, even if they don't know they are.
I keep sensing their touch. Let it be when I close my eyes and remember a memory, I feel them close. It's so safe to be close to them. I feel safer in their arms then I do anywhere or with anyone else.

They were always there.
They always stayed with me. And, I don't know how to really say it more than this, but I want to thank them for staying. Thank them eternal for not giving up on me, not yet anyway.

Theyre an inspiration on so many levels. When they first asked this question I'm replying to, I was at 20 poems. I'm over 130 now. That's one thing theyve inspired me with. To better myself. To express myself. I write so I can understand me, so they can understand me.

Theyre the reason I can smile each day when I wake up, because I know I'm a day closer to seeing them and that they're simply in my life. They're the reason i smile like an utter fool before i sleep.

They're my ray of sunshine in a thunderstorm.
They're a butterfly on a field of flowers.
They're my happiness in a life that can drag me down.

My heart's even beating more right now. I can feel it echo, it's loud. And yet I feel so calm. Why is that, tell me why. Tell me why for you it goes faster, tell me why I feel my eyes tear. Tell me why you mean so much to me.
Tell me why you're my light in a dark room.

They're unmatched. Absolutely nothing, no one, or nowhere can possibly compare to how I feel with them. Heaven would be a pure understatement ♡

The imagination can be such a misleading thing. But I don't think this one is leading me so wrong.

I've heard many people or couples say that they'd die for someone they love.
For me, it's the complete opposite.
For them, I'd live.
For them, I'd continue even when I feel like I cant.
For them, I take more care of myself than I used to.
For them, I try let go of habits.
For them, I try love myself that little bit more.
For this person in this "phase" for this person that's "only a close friend" -as my mother said-
For them, I'd try change myself to be better.
For them, I'd live. I'd fucking want to live through this life forever. Just so I could be with them for as long as I could possibly be.

I think, I believe, and I truly feel, that I am completely and utterly captivated by this beautiful soul.
As described in the question and to answer it- yes, I am down bad for my crush.

I love them truly.

Loving bumblebee, my hun,my bae,my luv, my cutie,my sweetie, my sweetheart,my teddy,
my sweet first Valentine,
my beloved darling,
I love you.
So so so much more than I can explain.
I. Love. You. 💜