There's another story hahaaa don't tell me I am a flirt. So a boy from my class proposed me. It was Friday he was gone for prayers and i was in class 9th ending time and my best friend that one from private school he confessed the feelings of that boy. And i was like which one among you is that boy. He said he has gone for prayers. I said I will tell you answer later. And i had an answer No ı'm my heart and meanwhile ourexams of 9th finished and winter vacation time. Everyone went back home. And I went to main town for studies. And now I am in 10th it is mid March 2019 and i got to know that the boy had proposed someone a new girl. And talked to her phone. And i went back to school. İn June 2019 and i never talked to him. Neither did I ask him for a reason cause I didn't loved him. Even though he was my classmate and then gradually 10 th finished, then afterwards in 11th went to main city. Then in I2th I had my phone and 14 august 2020 I texted that boy because everyone in my class was on right terms with me, he never talked to me so I thought since I am going out from the high school. A farewell to high school life and i texted him just normal things, unexpectedly he sent me a red heart emoji and i didn't know what to reply, my bestie had sent me that i forwarded that to him hahaaa how dumb me i could have used another emoji but i swear I am being honest I don't know what to say and he said I love you, and idiot me said I love you too. Because I thought the reply to I love you is I love you too. I could have said thanks but my mind cells didn't respond that time. And i never talked face to face with him and exams came and in January 2021 I broke with him. I never loved him. I dont consider that a relationship because in a relationship there is care, love which I never had for him. And he asked me many times but I said no because you can also say it is just I forwarded someone heart emoji to him haaahaa . The best thing about me is I was always clear when it comes to relationships. Thank god for that. And yaaa he is my friend. Sometimes I text him to know how life is going, önce in a year or in two years. He has a girlfriend I guess. I want you all to know that "just by saying I love you doesn't mean they are in love". Love needs honesty, a heart, a care, a belief in each other. Love is just amazing in itself.
And then there is third boy and now in a college hahaaa who am I. In 2022 .He liked me and I liked him but neither of us confessed and then I left the college and entered a new college. That's not love because they say when you love someone for there looks that's called obsession. How experienced you are hahaa histeric laugh.
And now I am in a new college and as I said I am going to in 2nd prof in this year 2024. And yaaa another story wow I guess I should be a storyteller hahaa.. So there is a boy of my college, he is handsome, he is someone like bossy, and a little bit fierce. When I went to that college it was our first day and it was the time to go back to home. And it was first travelling far on my own. I took the school bus. İt was free for first 4 days because our immediate seniors had exam. When everyone was waiting to go inside the bus the seniors were already in. I was waiting near the gate and suddenly I looked up and took a sigh my eyes meet the eyes of a senior boy. He gazed and i didn't know what to do cause the girls said they are tough. I got in and didn't even moved my neck. Only one time when something came in road I turned back and our eyes meet again. And the next day the had off and then all the time we always had eye contacts. And I always greet him in bus. I talked with him for the first time because he wanted to discuss about I cards. I swear I was not able to talk nor was I able to look at him. He has such a sweet voice he sings in bus when it is off time. Hahaaa not sweet voice really. Whenever he sees me his eyes just make my heart stop beating. As if everything is paused. Unfortunately I got to know he has a girlfriend from his classmate who is also my friend. She said he has a girlfriend. And yaaa they look cute together huh not really. Girlfriend is short but boyfriend is long. He keeps talking to his classmates, the girls too. And when we had freshers he asked me since I was at the back to click his picture, his girlfriends and the other girls. I took a nice pic. He and his friend has an accident in May 2023 . I swear I was so heartbroken and wanted to see him just for a while and i even asked my friend to give me his number but she said no and gave an excuse that i will aks him because my friend hates her because she finds him mean. My friend said I whish his leg would break in front of me and i was like numb. They hate him a lot. i saw him in December 2023 . After a long time. All I could do to look at him and just do nothing. I didn't had the courage to ask him how he was and how he have been. I can't tell my classmate, even if I speak his name Or smile when someone calls his name I am afraid they might get to know him. And when we went to picnic they said who is your crush in college I said no one. There is no one good to be my crush. Yaaaa I lied because they also have crush on him.
What should I do, I don't know cause as per my friend he has a girlfriend. Then why does he keep gazing and why do I like him. Why is that happening with him. I even see him in my dreams. Uff the heart and it's conflicts. Right now we have vacations and we will meet again in March. I will tell you what happens after. Hahaaa you excited

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