I used to cry every night , and didn't want my friends to know. I really don't like to be the center of attention but I just need one person to be with me and stay with me forever. I met some people that betrayed me many times, so now I don't think I can trust anyone now. I have a few childhood friends but I only meet them once in awhile, those childhood friends are the ones that I really want to have in my school but that won't happen... I miss my cousin and my grandfather who sadly went to a very peaceful place. Every day I think about them I really want to tell my friends about what I am going through but something is stopping me. It's like a magnetic pull , whenever u want to speak out and be confident, something pulls me.