~LIFE OF AN ADDICT ~
🧐😎∆let's catch a glimpse of what's going on in there and empathize ∆😎🧐

This journey to hell all starts with an act,maybe spurred by curiosity, could be external influence... whatever.All I know is that I see myself being drawn in and consumed by the attendant feeling of pleasure... a momentary pleasure... false and misleading.All I think of is the sweetness... the relief... the joy... whatever!
The door to reality is tightly shut till the cloud of false fantasies dispel.Then I'm caught in a dilemma.Should I face the harsh truth of the monster I'm becoming or relax in my bubble bath of deadly pleasure? I'm too far gone to be redeemed...too weak to face the battle of detachment!
It feels like I have two souls in one body... one pushing me on towards my consolation... my obsession and the other pulling me out to the harsh elements of truth and healing.I must admit... it's tearing me apart 😩
There is always a turning point in every situation and my situation wasn't allergic to change 🌝.It all started from the mind... this dark mind of mine that had lost hope of redemption was visited by a bright light and thus my healing process began.
I accepted my fall and I sought to rise.Addiction ...i realised🤔,has never led to anything fulfilling.It leaves one in a perpetual state of craving for chains.A longing to be enslaved by our object of affection.At this point we block our minds from chains and embrace this sweet evil!
ADDICTION ~Sweet for the momentary pleasure gained🤗🥹 and evil with its claws trapping us into a tunnel of insatiable longings, restlessness and depression ☠️👿⛳
© Kelly