Can I love again after the break-up, another time, waiting. To feel unloved once more, in another reoccurring timeline. Am I prepared to go through the emotional agony of another pattern, emotionally restless, for me these are worrisome times. It's unsettling to find the same problem repeating from the beginning again. Like a sitcom programmed repeating systematically. Repeating myself, however, I don't really want to. Whether right or wrong, I continue to believe something different with happen. Something unusual like an eclipse or sprinkling of rain when the sun is out. I want something magical. Something everlasting. Imagining it will occur, but it doesn't. Dreaming that I will love her forever. Repeating myself, there are multiple ripples in my golden pond. Golden because it's peaceful. Unhappy whenever repeating the same mistakes. Choosing sexy over my soulmate. I've tried many times, however, footprints are made in the sand. They can not be erased. Nor can the footprints be altered. Again, I am repeating myself.
© Daniel Mason