Dear 0411
I may not or may tell you,
Im not sure as to what I want and what to do.
Is it courage to tell you or the will to let you go?
I'm sorry if this seem like I do not consider you.
Believe me I do, nothing else in my mind except you.
You've been taking too much of everything from me.
It's scary.
I hope for courage to help me for I've been feeling drowing in a sea.
I wish to save myself from this misery, can somebody tell me the first step to be?
God and universe whoever is thee, have mercy.
A pitiful soul like me drowing in a one sided downfall and theres no one to blame but me.
A pure agony!
How do I beg myself to stop?
Theres a treacherous bond between my mind and body.
They're ignoring my heart and my soul is sorry.
Torn in between loving you more and the want to leave coz theres nothing .
The sleepless nights the tears downpoured.
We knew we know the situation we're in but theres nothing we can do,
Your man loves you and I'm just a girl inlove with you.
2 years have past I still feel you, yet, theres nothing I can do.
My mind and heart has told me to rather love you in a distance than completely lose you.
But in this process my soul has been begging me to let go. I know.
Believe me, theres nothing in this world that I want to except knowing that you're in the right man who loves and take care of you.
I myself will gather the will to ease this pain and let go.
Torn in between I never knew that choosing some things can cause a great delemna lik this feeling I have for you.