I need to make a change, from what's wrong & what's right, untill It's all rearranged.
Im so hard on myself to a point, it's considered deranged. Disappointments, broken dreams, & everything in between, im prepared for the worst, as its viewed as strange.

Compulsively acting out that I can't stop the obsession, it's all I crave.
Another night dancing at the rave, while my brain's rotting it echoes like a cave.
I feel like a black hole but I can't stop digging my own grave.

Im dancing with death, yet again, we have another date.
My button is stuck on repeat, I have to wait. Constant circles, seem to be my fate.
It's all a catastrophe you see, it has to be everything and anyone but me!
All I have are justified reasons, so made up it should be treason.

Stashed away in the back of my mind,
hidden in the darkest corners I could find, in the greatest of depths, beyond what the eye can see west, there is a nest, within is something bigger than me, I want to invest.
An open mind is all that's needed for this quest. The sign seen cannot be denied as a test.

Put enough energy out and dreams will Manifest. Positivity keeps me sane the desire to fill that black hole has been sustained. It was all so out of reach something I thought i'd never attain. Everyday is a choice I no longer have to drag around that chain, all of yesterday's sorrows or tomorrow's pain. none of that matters, in this moment, I am who I am and forgiveness is a key to gain.


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