Dead Confidence
I'm not like all the girls you see
I'm so different, just plain me.
Look in the mirror,
see all of my errors .
See a girl that never deserves a crown,
constantly making eye contact with the ground.
Center on stage still wouldn't feel like I deserve the spotlight,
always feel like something not quite right.
Tell my children to embrace their flaw,
but my reflection tell me I'm a fraud
My confidence got me handcuffed,
little voice inside shouting that I was never enough.
Up and down on this confidence wave
A feeling that I can't grave
Can't cover up the overflowing emotions on my sleeve
Can't deny how my heart bleed,
That my depression is concrete,
becoming like another heartbeat.
Shadow of doubts seem content,
constant battles to no end.
The way my hips sway,
distract you that my mind is a stray.
My brokeness is seepin through
Emotions is unscrew
Want the darkness to be my hideout,
so I can let all my insecurities pour out.
Not enough stars to make me pretty as the girls in the videos,
Will never be tall enough to be in a fashion show
Will never be skinny enough as the girls on social media
Even if I had a talking mirror
Wish I could copy and paste someone elses song,
deleted the fact that I'm a tune that went wrong.
My light is dim ahead,
but bright enough to see that my confidence is dead

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