Funny how you threaten my future-

Because my academics is one of the only things you can control now that I'm stronger
For you can choose whether or not to drive me to school

I tell myself only a couple more months till I'm allowed to get my license, a job, hopefully enough money for a car that will take me places other than here
As well as the food I wish to eat to keep my body a 'running
-But then you say you'll tell the school to remove your permission for me to do my college course.

My running start,
Why don't you want that for me?
Is it that hard to support me?

-I'm sorry for what I did to hurt you
Though I'm sure those words don't really mean anything to anyone anymore
At least it'll fuel your ego

So in my head I dream a couple of months into the future
Where I stand up to you, tell people what's really going on in this house
Work a job, run a marathon, volunteer at the animal shelter
Where I can drive my car to school

In the end I'll-
Have some cash to buy some new clothes, some necessities, and maybe a couple of treats
Have some activities to have my life worth living

I also,
In my head dream a couple of years from now
When I am 18
In my own house, apartment, dorm-
Any is fine
At least, I'll remember, I'm not as trapped anymore
And I won't be scared to hear footsteps outside my room, for you do not live with me

Cause I know how to escape now, and fix my problems
So I can help make the world a better place now that I myself am better

-When I won't have to hide my body in my hoodie from you disapproving my taste of style and my looks,
Smiling with friends, who are real and true
-I thank them for taking their time and being here for me, before I wake up again
And I'm back in the present
With my hopes for a couple of months from now
The only thing keeping me going

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