I think I'll go backwards and live my life that way.
Loving only those that ever really loved me.
Meaning, there won't be much love to worry about.
Loving lonely.
Loving those who are at a distance and away from me will not happen.
I need attention.
I am sorry.
I have to have attention.
I will love alone.
I have really always loved alone.
Just now, I am understanding why.
I let it happen.
I allow this to happen.
I do this to Myself.
I can no longer do this to Myself.
I hate myself.
I don't care if
I die or not.
No one loves me.
No one would care.
No one would care if I died.
It would be one less person to take up space.
I will not love another person on this earth.
I am done with Loving.
I am done.

 
© Kristin E. Porter
2007