A day for me begins in tears, terrifying it may seem to a person that may not know my heart. Each facade breaks down slowly, slowly bringing my inner self out. The self I say each day "Stay away" because my true personality terrifies me. She will bring out my clingyness, my fervent desires, my sins and even my love for people. I hide for me, or I just hid because it was the easy way. I don't know anymore, soon the castle walls that I built these past few years will crumble. The heart within the castle walls will be set free and I am beside myself in bewilderment. The walls that are up look beautiful, though I do not regret being apart of their destruction. It feels as if I am in a field with the one I've fallen for. The fact that my heart could be freed by a beauty like her. A brown beauty that made me vulnerable each time she smiled. A body that made my soul lust for pieces of her moan. A personality that broke my inner walls and made me want to be hers. I want to stay with her forever. So, that I may smile as myself and have the family that's been in my heart.

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