upon us
is the time when I need you the most
where are you now?
why do I feel as if I were a ghost..

this is the part
which I dread the most

alone I stand
alone I have only ever stood

it's not the craving
it's not the needing

it's a feeling
as the world suddenly changes
strength fades
promises are lost
hope becomes a lie

then it's just me and my head
left feeling I might as well just be dead

where are you now?
"I am here " they say
"just talk to me " they say

you do not know
how hard it is
when that beast grabs hold of you
and you feel no matter what you try
it will never let you go

where are you now?
how can you expect me
to be able to think straight
in this desperate time
when I must fight

where are you now?
pull me apart from it's dreadful clutches!
don't you see?
if it holds the choice
never will I be free!

where are you now?
hear me!
I am so afraid..
help me..
I am suffocating

where are you now?
come forward and be with me..


© E.Savannah