From now on I wanna hear a ring.
I want to hear that stupid trrr trrr background music.
Then a 'Helo'.
I want to know that You're actually there, that You're actually listening and that I'm not speaking to an unending slip your mind.
Because for so long I called,
but who am I talking to.
I can't cry,
And I wanna cry-in a way i never did before-to You.
But my eyes just won't allow, I just wanna know why.
I wanna feel You,
In my heart,
My head,
My stomach,
I wanna feel You in control.
I wanna live in You,
And You in me.
I hunger for a second of Your fire.
Just a small diluted amount will be enough,
To burn.
I want to be greater in You,
Than what I can ever be in this world full of people full of sin and people who are bloodthirsty, so please, don't take me with them.
Yet; I know, if You kept a record of just mý sin I wouldn't even be able to get on my knees.
But with You there is forgiveness,
But I want to feel that forgiving whooshing power in my system.
I want to feel that filling of righteousness, for I have been hungry and thirsty for far too long now.
I hate myself in this world, especially this generation.
It's rubbing off on me, and I don't want it to!
Can You please just answer the call!

From now on I wanna hear a ring.
I want to hear that stupid trrr trrr background music.
And then a 'Helo'.
Ask me about my day,
And I ask about Yours.
I know You're probably disappointed, Maybe even angry.
But I'm trying.
Just give me a bit time,
But not too much to allow me to fall back.
cause i don't want to be moved out of Your hand.
I fell!
like right now, I fell.
Lord please!

Answer the call.

I need Your help.
Replace my unrighteousness with Your righteousness.
Place my weak hand back into Your strong hand.
Lift me back up again.
Fill me up with Your Spirit.
please answer.
I can't do this without You.

I wanna hear a ring.
I want to hear that stupid trrr trrr background music.
Then a "Helo My child."

© JansenB