Why did I love you so damn much
And how and earth did you get me to love you more than how I do myself?
You are one of the best versions of me and you didn't want it.

I even knew it was a toxic relationship, But I still just wanted to stay.
And it's crazy because when I had you there was some moment when I told myself just leave and get away. But the moment you are gone I fell apart. And I felt like I couldn't live without you. And there was sometimes I didn't want to.

Now I am here shuffling through the trail of destruction you left behind.
I'm trying find my own peace again.
While you are out there enjoying the peace you took from me with someone else who had no idea what they're in for.
And after all this, I still pray for you more than I pray for me.
@karen_chambers