Hello! I will share a traumatic experience in my life. I was five or six years at that time. I along with my friend and
our family went to Guwahati for our vacation. Our resort was at a higher point and a lower point was a swimming pool and a Guwahati
forest. Between the points there is 108 stairs to cross. I and my friend and his sister went to the swimming pool whereas the elders were
having breakfast. We picked our swimming suit and entered the swallow division of the pool for children. But the partition was not
prominent. While we were having fun suddenly I slipped from the partition where we were sitting with my back facing the deeper side.
When I fell I didn’t hit the ground and understood its way too deep than it looked from the surface. I struggled and beat the water to come to
the surface and called for help. As I beat the water to go up I felt I can do it. I can reach the top. Then I will again shout with all my power
so that someone can help me. A sudden willpower worked out of nowhere. As I went downward I saw a low dim of light which I wanted to
touch. As I looked around there was water everywhere and felt that I was in the middle of nowhere. Only that dim white sparling light was
my last hope. With a faith in my heart and a stirring willpower I pushed my legs downwards and moved my hand upwards but I failed as my
body started to go against my will. It ceased all movements. I gave up and asked myself to wait. Slowly I heard humming voice. So soft and
soothing to my ears. By this time my friend and his elder sister understood that I drowned. So his sister threw the rubber ring towards me so
that I can clutch. But my body had no energy and was numb. All I could do was hold my pendent will all my might as if it was everything
and my only companion. As for my last try I shouted but no sound came out from my mouth. Slowly I felt that it was getting cramped as if I
am caged in a small box so I cannot move anymore. As seconds and minutes passed darkness started to descend and I started to let go of
everything and was feeling sleepy; very sleepy. Then I heard voices but the soft humming sound over covered it and I felt comfortable and
closed my eyes.
When I opened my eyes I found myself on a hospital bed with a saline drop. My father was sitting on a chair. He helped me sit up. I was
very weak and vomited. I got to know what happen I was pulled out. But I had no sense and my body was cold and completely blue. They
began CPR, rubbed my palm with oil, and wrapped me with warm blanket. The ambulance came within 30 minutes. The doctor
accompanying said he couldn’t find the pulse giving up on hope. Uncle prayed while my father rubbed my feet but suddenly I moved my
palm a bit for a second. The doctor saw that and checked the pulses and said that miraculously he could feel a very weak pulse. Then I was
hospitalised. I was unconscious for the whole night. After hear all I felt that if I would have been a bit careful nobody had to suffer. I heard that
my mother got so scared that she cried a lot and fainted. Only my father strongly handled the situation. Nobody had a mode to eat. My
friend and his sister waited for my arrival the whole day. I had no appetite either. My body was very weak to move. I had nausea and
vomited. At night I had nightmare. Mostly I saw I was in water and someone had tied me with rope. I even met my late grandfather. At night
I screamed and woke up. I even murmured those nonsensical dreams. The Assam hospital’s head of the department met us and said that my parents did some great work in their past life and I got a new life. He blessed me too with long life.

But that was not all........

The actual sequel started after we came home. I couldn’t close the bathroom door as I felt suffocated in a closed place
after that incident. Couldn’t use the shower as I felt I couldn’t breathe. So my mother helped me to bath. At night I saw nightmares. These
fears last for a long time. But this not only affect me it even affected others. My parents, my friend and his family who experienced it. I was
under strict surveillance when we went for vacation. I felt my freedom being snatched away. I was accompanied always. Even in games
regarding drowning my friend would choose to save me. I was not allowed to go to tuitions alone. When we went to Raichak, there also my
mother did not at first allow to go to the pool. As for me when I got permission and I stood on the boarder of the pool, my heart raced.....I felt
the same fear over taking. But I closed my eyes and told myself nothing will happen. Then I let go of the fear slowly and jumped. At 1st I was
having minor breathing problem even if it was shallow but as I started to have fun, my fear started to fade. Then I wanted to go to the deeper
part where the water level was up to my neck. The fear over took again but I didn’t want to lose to it so I vowed to go even if for once. I
mastered my willpower and slowly took the steps holding my friends and mother. I did have fun although I stayed for a minute. I was happy.
I was excited as I could triumph over my fear. The happiness was inexpressible. I felt like a fighter and felt so proud to defeat my weakness.

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**So I would like to say that fears are the greatest enemy. To master over it you need to believe in yourself. As long as you give it a try.....how tought it is, how big it is, you would surely able to brake throught the chains of fears one day. Maybe that day won't come fast but believe me it will come eventually .😉
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