I'm smiling on the outside
But and I smiling on the inside?
My heart pounds
On minutes its happy
The next its not its sad
One minute im happy
One minute everything is all fine
The next its not
Everything is not fine
It feels like my heart is gonna break
I can't breathe
I can't see
I think about the things
I promised I wouldn't do
I grab the thing I promised I would use on myself
Yet thoughts run through my head
My sister doesn't really care anymore
All she wants is to argue
I feel alone
Without any of my sisters
I crying alone
I could cry to someone else
But they are the reason I'm crying
I feel so misunderstood
I feel unheard
I feel out of place
I think about how a person can die from a broken heart
Why haven't I yet?
My friend hasn't responded
One I know could understand
I feel so lost
I feel so out of place
Unheard
My emotions messed with
My head played with
I feel lied to
And all I want to do
Is go to the place I've always wanted to go to.
© Alexiehooper