I hide myself from others in this world
Among the closest and furtherst from my circle.

I walk alone in this world.
Just walking, thinking, and observing.
I walk for miles and miles for years.
I see the world for how it is not speaking or any engagement of interaction.
For I am training to learn from the world around about others even myself.

Not having a friend in site or date in mind nor sight.
I found out I like myself to learn
to love myself in this matter.
I am a lone wolf I suppose.
Until one day I had open myself to speak and engage with others.

At that moment I did not know it yet
But that Is that the day that I lost.
I lost a portion of myself.
I made friends, I went to open gatherings, events, and open myself to dating.
I came and went and found a lot of group of nothings.
The more I went and experience the less I was thrill or content.

Maybe it was the experience, maybe it was the people, maybe it is was introverted self, or the location.
Whatever it is I found myself more and more disappointed and lost hope of the things in which surround me.

Friends seems or rather more like enemies or friend of enemies.
So unlike anything I experience or seen before.
I guess it was the image they were in love with I supposed.
Anything to feel a sense of togetherness I suppose
Interaction seems weird and even more unnatural than ever.

As for dating I was told beauty and captivated was something to be admire by myself from others.
Oh, one of the lies I use everyday for remebert of the past.
Never thought anything about myself .
Weird how a lot of men and women use or describe beauty with women or other men.
Again the image or idea of a woman or of a particular man I supposed.

Rather, the less appeal and interest became of things around me.
The more distant going back to my ole self.
I found the walk is more necessity of a way life than I could ever thought.

The people in the world is funny I suppose.
The image of everyday love i suppose.
How unfulfilled?





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