sometimes we have to start over in life to grow up out of things and places and people to learn it time to start over it not bad when you have to be mindful of the people who is in your life at the right time God been showing back over my life and now I see what he trying to teach me sometime people have plans for you and don't matter it always don't be for good sometimes you fall in love with the wrong people and prayers do change thing I didn't know what to do but trust God and he helped me out my Strom he really been showing me my friends and family and he been also showing me the people that throwing rocks and holding their hand and I know that he have a better purpose for me and then I also understand that when kids get grown you have to let them live their life and I am going to live mine for me and I'm going to make the best of the things I can do now that I couldn't do back then from 2019 I've been going through this storm and didn't understand why and why my kid was going through the things they were going through but then I understand that God have a purpose for everybody and we have to understand that things that not in our hands we have to take our hands off and I just didn't understand why that I was going through so much my son stole my car and I had him put in jail because I mean it was dangerous and I didn't understand why he do it but at the time he was young he didn't understand and he thought it was fun but at the same time it wasn't funny in my hands because if anything would happen I've been in fault but at the same time I'm not going to be at fault for something that I did not do but same time he learned six months of being detained that okay Mommy not playing I'm not going to take her car anymore and then he didn't 2020 people had my baby on the news said he kidding out some little girl and my son is not the type they're kidnapped and he's a little child that same time little girl was a hot mess and her mom was a hot mess also and then another thing too 21 with a really messy new 2021 with a messy here I will Foster arrested public humiliated for falsely accused identity theft I don't know where my life is going and where it's not trying to go but I still put everything in God's hand cuz I know he got away with everything and I can't do anything about it so why should I I just sit back and let him do it but 22 oh my dad had my daughter and brought her back to my house and I lost my house in June of 22 and my dad bought it in August of 22 then he sold it September of 23 I was 10 homeless didn't have anywhere to go I didn't understand why that I was betrayed the way I was but same time I learned as time goes on how people family and and things I learned about witches and warlock also and just didn't understand I have been talked about it a long time ago my grandma was talking about it and she also told me that there's a lot of people that love to go in the graveyard and playing the dirt and hurt people I never knew how true it was until last year when I went through my storm and I just really thank God for showing me it's good people and it's bad people and the justice system really need them tighten up on their job and do a better job the world depends on them and when you make a mess it hurts everybody don't just hurt one person hurt everyone and then like I said I'm sorry my life over I'm trying to make a little better life for myself and I am going to do it but the same time I'm going to let God do it and keep me strong and loving my loving on my grandkids right now and I'm blessed I can't ask for anything more but yes I am looking for my new next husband which whenever God release him to me that's when he'll come
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