"You people don't have any life! You people don't have any feeling! Ahh... even breathing in the same room makes me feel disgusting! You bloody faggot!" These words echoes again in my ears and shivers me to the inside. I close my ears with both hands thinking that this can stop that terrible voice, but failed. It can only stop the sound of outside traffic.And that voice is still echoing in my ears and hurting my heart. Really? I don't have any feelings like everyone? Really? loving someone of the same-sex makes me so disgusting that no one even wants to talk to me? No one can breath in the same room?

ugghhhhhh!!!

Suddenly I heard a car horn That horrible horn made me shiver with fear completely and I come out of my thoughts. Suddenly a car takes break just behind me. The car's front part touches my waist. My heart is running at 20miles per hour. After a few seconds, I take a deep breath and realizes that I am standing in the middle of the road.

"Do you want to die? And if yes, find another car. Give me my way." The man sitting inside the car almost shouts. I bow my head and stand on one side of the road. The car leaves. I at the stars playing hide and seek with the clouds. The night is getting darker, the moon is not there and only stars are visible. Everything is in deep silencet. Even on the road, sometimes some vehicles appear there. I turn back and I find myself in front of the same park where everything was started. At the moment, this park is completely silent and no one is there as it is 1 am. I get inside the park with heavy steps and put the big rectangular gift on the bench which is still packed, it is still not opened. Why would he open this? Why would he be interested in anything related to me? He told me everything, what does he feel for me, what am I to him and why did he do this? I sit on the same bench on which I was sitting that evening too.

That evening-

That evening, I was sitting on this bench alone as my only friend Sakshi was not with me. I was looking at my childhood in those the children's game who were playing there. I still remember
when I was a kid, other children used to tease me that I behaved like a girl and wouldn't let me play with them. I used to be happy just sitting in the corner watching their game. I also wanted to play but they all used to call me crying boy, girlish boy and tease me. I couldn't say anything, couldn't do anything.

Once I was sitting in the corner of the park putting my head on my knees and a girl come and sit beside me. She pet my head, I got shocked and looked at her. She says "Hi, I am Sakshi"

Yes, I knew her, she is the new girl in this area. Every child wanted to be her friend but...why is she here?

"Hi, I am Aryan" I replied by giving a smile but I was still staring at her with questioning eyes.

"Why are you sitting like this? Let's play!" she says and gets up.

I looked around but there was not anyone.

"I am talking to you, Aryan"

"You want to play with me?" I asked again.

Yes, she held my hand and dragged me to the park. That's how me and Sakshi became friends. I still don't know why she became my friend. Now, I am 20 years old and she is still my friend. We go to the park every evening.
But that evening, she was not there with me, she went to another city to meet her grandmother and I was missing her my only friend badly sitting on the bench and, suddenly I heard a voice "Excuse me, May I sit here?" I looked in the direction of that soft voice, and my eyes land on a guy standing there wearing a black T-shirt who was gently smiling.

"Yes...you can!" I replied and looked around the park, there were a lot of empty benches. He sat beside me and looked in my eyes, his light green eyes stopped my heart-beat for a second.

"Hi, I am Raj," he said and smiled. I just lost myself for a second in his smile and his smile made me smile too for no reason.

"Hi, I am...."

"....Aryan" he cut my sentence and smiled or that was a smirk.

"Yes....?" I felt a little strange and looked at him with questioning eyes.

He laughed a bit "okay, actually I notice you daily here. But you used to come with a girl...." he stopped without completed his sentence like he was asking about her.

"Oh, Sakshi di (a word for addressing big sister). She is not here, she went to her grandmother and will come after 2 or 3 weeks." But I got confused, he notices me! But why? And my mind started running and thinking some stupid thoughts.

"It is good, in these days, I can talk to you without any interruption," he said softly coming close to my ear, so close that I could feel the warmth of his breath. My heart skipped a beat and then started beating fast, my cheeks heated up and turned red. Like they would turn into ash. I was just smiling couldn't oppose that closeness as I really loved it.

After that he told about himself that he was a student and came to this city for studying. And I was listening and losing myself in his voice, I was just loving his soft voice and the way he was speaking.

The next evening, I didn't why but I was very excited about the park, it was not like I loved going to the park but that evening there was something else in my brain. I was smiling and kept looking at the watch. It was 4:30, I got up from the table, closed my book and run to the bathroom. And the spent my 15 min in the bathroom and rest 15 in deciding and wearing clothes.

I didn't know why but the entire way to the park, I was just thinking about him if I would get a chance to meet him again. But that blank bench made me disappointed. I started feeling heavy inside me like I missed something, something very important. I took a view of the entire park but only old men and children were there. I sighed and slowly started walking towards the bench with a heavy heart.

Suddenly I heard a voice from behind "Am I late?" and it flipped my heart. My heavy heart started dancing like it was what that dragged me here in the park today, it is what I was waiting for. I just controlled my smile and turned to him "Oh, you are here..." and I just got confused if I should use 'again' after this phrase. But the very next sentence was the most strange but beautiful sentence I ever heard-

"Someone is looking so gorgeous that I don't wanna see somewhere else."

It just made me blush so hard that I couldn't look at him anymore. I bowed my head and started rubbing the grass with my shoes. I was having a feeling that he was smiling but couldn't look at him. We sat on the same bench.

After that he used to come to the park daily and I used to wait for him. Even in school, I used to think that when school will be over and when it will be five o'clock and when I will go to the park and will meet Raj. In those days I used to feel full happiness in only 2 hours of my life.

Once he said to me that he couldn't find his phone and asked me to make a ring to him. I gave my phone to him and he dialled his number and his phone rang but...but his phone was in his pocket. He smiled and said "It is my number and now I have your number too. Would you mind if I call you at night?"

I was shocked but so much happy that I couldn't hide my happiness. I was smiling like a crazy and my cheeks were hurt. He stepped close to me and move his face close to my ears, I could feel his breath on my cheek. My cheek turned red and my heart was not beating anymore.

He just said "Plz reply my call else I will not be able to breathe." and he stepped forward his lips just touch my cheek. I closed my eyes and my heart skipped a beat, my lips were shivering but he just crossed me and left from there. My phone rang, it was a notification. I opened it there was a message

Don't worry, I won't do anything without your permission

It made me more blush and I did not know how long I stood there smiling and staring at that message.
I used to be very happy those days. Any part of life which had always been empty was now seeming occupied. I used to smile unreasonably, started humming. The time that I used to think never progressed, now just used to fly away. I started loving my life, I started enjoying every second of my life.

One evening, I was thinking about him, thinking that anyone who was once a stranger to me became my own in the very first meeting. And when I came so close to him I never realized. Then my phone rang, it was Raj's call. My heart flipped, I took a deep breath and picked up the call

"Hello"

"Aryan, today I will not be able to come to the park."

It made me shook badly all the way inside. Those days, I never imagined myself alone in the evening, I just used to wait for the evening so that I could meet him. I used to live my 24 hours in those 2 hours. I controlled my voice and said, "Why?"

"Because you are not going to the park today, what will I do alone there?"

I did not understand anything, I heard came the sound of laughing from the other side,

"Just look outside"

And suddenly the sound of a horn entered my ears, I peeped out of the window and saw that Raj was standing outside with the bike.

He said softly "Will you come with me this evening?"

This made me blush, thank God he was on the call else he would see my red face. I couldn't even say 'yes'. I hung up the call and texted yes, I will come. Just wait for 10 min.

And I sat on the floor against the wall and hugged my phone tightly.


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