How it turned in this way how I...
I thought it's normal to found some handsome and good-looking I was too afraid to admit that I'm a gay so I lied from myself.
My friends use to told me that being gay is disgusting they said me to stay away from gay's .
When I started to feel so lonely with my friends I didn't notice. I always thought "What if they found that I'm gay? "
they will leave me and will never talk to me I will be alone then I was already alone I guess.
I was in library I was reading BL fictional Novel I heard someone I didn't mean to over heard but they were like
"What do you mean you can't !? Don't be stupid you can't find any other gay to hangout. " Jamie said.

There was Jamie and Charlie. Charlie is a gay and whole college know about it.

"Stop it I'm already exhausted I told you if I found you with someone else no matter man or woman I will dump you and here I'm. "Charlie said.

They both had an argument for a while Jamie leavedid in anger I saw Charlie was upset I went to him I apologise for over hearing he said it was fine and said sorry if I became uncomfortable because of them I found him nice we started to hangout in library I told him about me he said he will keep it secret for me I wanted to be like him .
I really wanted to tell my parents that I'm gay but what if they get disappointed by me .
Rumors started to spread people started to ask me if Charlie was harsh with me if he was forcing me to hangout with him.
Charlie was really good and nice to me he use to understand me I thought it's enough at Saturday night at dinner I cried and told my family I'm gay I said sorry and cried a lot my father hugs me and said there is nothing to apologize. They said they will always love me and will be always by my side I got courage and on Monday I told my friends that I'm gay they didn't leave me neither broke our friendship.
And in the last everyone was happy for me that I open myself to them I no longer felt lonely with my friends.
© Priya Rawat