How it turned in this way how I...
I thought it's normal to found some handsome and good-looking I was too afraid to admit that I'm a gay so I lied from myself.
My friends use to told me that being gay is disgusting they said me to stay away from gay's .
When I started to feel so lonely with my friends I didn't notice. I always thought "What if they found that I'm gay? "
they will leave me and will never talk to me I will be alone then I was already alone I guess.
I was in library I was reading...