i feel like iam drowning in a never ending ocean, where I can't even look for my death, or a end which will, I thought, will eventually put a dot to all my problems...but now,iam stuck...iam like suffocating, and being pressed again between four walls and I am choking....but in reality, it's worse.

when I see myself in my condition, I find myself weak and pale, in every way. just never had I thought, I will notice these things in a age, which was supposed to be innocent and carefre...well, iam not complaining, duh!..I know many children do suffer and alot, maybe more than me...but the only question, which trouble me is...why?? why it even happen and why to children, specifically??

and now iam confused...will it ever end? or it's just a infinite pain, which will remain, physically, emotionally as well as mentally, forever and merciless??...

the water in which iam drowning is way too deep...and dark...and scary. there are endless things to be afraid of in this ocean, in which every person,...