When i first saw him, that little voice inside of me said “ What if?”
Both of us, single then and both of us still single now. We have our individual lives but everything is how it’s suppose to be.
Hence, why we met. Why, we lost touch and why you admitted that i was worth searching for again, then you found me again. You were never too far from my centre thoughts, you were always in there somewhere just waiting for that second glance, of course you knew. You felt my vibration calling out to you from the depths of my mind.
Sometimes, i recall that afternoon when you arrived, only by chance. We met them for a reason. As I truly believe that everything happens for a reason. Whether natural or supernatural. It all happens, as it’s the way of things, for me and you. I can not speak for anyone else but for that day, for those precious couple of hours.
Beginnings have such a beautiful ring to them, the magic of the new season, that blessing that you use, counts. That happy moment that you’ve freeze framed in your mind. So many wonderful new beginnings, that we don’t always recognise but instead, we take for granted without a clear or focused thought for them. So there was a beginning and now there will be a middle working it’s way towards an ending, but not yet written.
As human beings, we create, we accept, we prepare, we acknowledge, we listen, we absorb. We wait and learn patience, while we wait.
What I want to know is this. “Am i your girl?” “ Will you protect me from all harm, when you are able too?” “ Will you be the one that i see on the holidays?” “Will this, whatever this is now, move gradually into something that we can claim as our own?”
So you see, internally i seek answers to my questions. “Are you able to respond to these questions, in the way they deserve to be responded too?” I connect so very much on a deeper level, as i’m more that just flesh and blood, I have a mind and a soul too. Just like you.
I am pensive with thought and with meaning. I am a spiritual being filled with much emotional intelligence, more than you’ll realise once you get into my mind and walk around it for a few hours.
To at least attempt a beginning to understand me.
Oh yes, i have imperfections as anyone. I am filled with mixed emotions as anyone. I feel the hurt and the intensity of the pain both physical and emotional caused by others. “But don’t we all?”
What i ask of you is, to give me that chance to know me, really know me.
Then in turn, any misunderstandings or confusion of thoughts, that you may hold can and will in time be clearly explained.
Through this commitment of total and true communication between us.
Anyway, this is what i would choose to say, if you gave me that opportunity too.

So for now, i just sit here.
Wondering and pondering on things, about everything and anything,
quietly to myself.
Living in the hope that there will come a time to gain that confirmation, that i so seek.

(24/03/23)



© Josephine Daniels.