first day

doubting myself if I can while noticing my hands are trembling with fear of the consequences I will choose once I step on the ground I need to be.

finding familiar face is something not hard to find for me who grew up in that school while trying to conversations with someone is something I won't chase because they hated hearing me speak but I hate being quiet everday even if I can speak but I am mute most of the day.

I just wish I could be confident just like everyone I see and admired but no matter how much they try to gave me opportunity I always run away.

I wanted to achieve my dreams but my actions didn't tell it as if they are forcing me to just stay where I am.

all I can do was cry in silence while look at those who made it.

why am I like this?

not expecting much more to myself while hurting others because I don't wanted to take those opportunities.

I always thought I will be somebody but I'm just a nobody.

(t's not my first day yet but it's always been the same)