my game is pretending
pretending to not care
because deep inside
there is this lingering fear

for once
maybe he is right

am i suppose to be alone
lost within these empty halls
only occasionally catching the reflection
of a child who will never trust again

we both know the secret
relationships can never work
unless two are willing to fall in love
and open up with honesty
together

that is terrifying
too risky for someone so fragile

the facade of a woman
who smiles towards strangers
then keeps a causal conversation
is one heartbreak away from crumbling

i can feel the cracks
every evening while trying to breathe
they are remindful aches
that feel better than the alternative

this is safer
even if it kills inside

my game is pretending
pretending not to care
because deep inside
my dreams are already shattered

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