I’m trapped inside my cave
held captive like a slave
to the memories I have saved
held captive in my brain
these demons feed on pain
they cry out to be slain
with a slit of my wrists
I’ll no longer exist
would that be a shame?
what if I’m to blame
for all the hearts I’ll break
all the time I take
I’d rather not be awake

I’m tempted by the other side
I start to drift between the lines
but the sight of oncoming lights
pulls me back to the right

my breaks are on fire
I’m trying to slow down
but if I stop moving forward
I’ll stand out in the crowd

the weather is colder
so I can cover my wrists
wear all my hoodies
pretend I don’t exist

I woke up today
with a new pain in my spine
some kind of memory
of a time I didn’t mind
the soft whispers late at night
or a scream that starts a fight
with you I would rather fight
then wake up in the morning
to realize I’d been left behind

by something else I’ll always miss
someone else that spends their time
pretending I don’t exist

© JubilantDragon