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journey to a perfect life
I have a lot to say,but the word ain't coming out of my mouth
it's just in my head,and I want to let it out,but i can't
my life is a mess at the same time perfect.
A single mother,who raised me up to become who she wasn't
a father who I tried all I could to get closer but kept on being pushed away
13yrs she developed cancer
she tried all she could to hide it away from me but the wicked thing ate her up
doctors said she had to cut off her breast,but my stubborn church mother refused because she wanted to go back to her maker with a perfect body.
Did she think about me when she made that decision?
or made up her mind to leave a 13yrs old girl alone in this world
no proper explanation of who my father was,why they weren't together.
Almost done with college,yeah she stayed till I was done,
she beat the bastard,but on that faithful day Cancer said no to her.
9 or 10pm that night she asked for a cup of water,I did give her,I was sleep walking,I was feverish and exhausted.
I didn't know the cup of water was the last she'd have and the last thing I'd ever give to my mother.
I woke up 4am in the morning and people where crying,everyone saying things that didn't make meaning to me....
Just like a dream I wanted to wake up,mum I am too young to be left alone.i didn't have supportive uncles,how am I going to cope.you need to wake up and tell me.
daybreak,more visitors,my condolence,take heart,its well..
No that can't bring the most precious thing I possess of.
That can't bring her back to me,she went six feet,but I could still feel her presence,I could still see her in my dreams and it felt real.people keep saying you're going to get over this,How?,how will I?
My whole world turned upside down,I began leaving a life she never wanted me to,I met a guy,went visiting and then he took it,yes he took it because I gave it willing,I thought that was the best way to show him I love him back and that changed me.
© Barbara dreams
it's just in my head,and I want to let it out,but i can't
my life is a mess at the same time perfect.
A single mother,who raised me up to become who she wasn't
a father who I tried all I could to get closer but kept on being pushed away
13yrs she developed cancer
she tried all she could to hide it away from me but the wicked thing ate her up
doctors said she had to cut off her breast,but my stubborn church mother refused because she wanted to go back to her maker with a perfect body.
Did she think about me when she made that decision?
or made up her mind to leave a 13yrs old girl alone in this world
no proper explanation of who my father was,why they weren't together.
Almost done with college,yeah she stayed till I was done,
she beat the bastard,but on that faithful day Cancer said no to her.
9 or 10pm that night she asked for a cup of water,I did give her,I was sleep walking,I was feverish and exhausted.
I didn't know the cup of water was the last she'd have and the last thing I'd ever give to my mother.
I woke up 4am in the morning and people where crying,everyone saying things that didn't make meaning to me....
Just like a dream I wanted to wake up,mum I am too young to be left alone.i didn't have supportive uncles,how am I going to cope.you need to wake up and tell me.
daybreak,more visitors,my condolence,take heart,its well..
No that can't bring the most precious thing I possess of.
That can't bring her back to me,she went six feet,but I could still feel her presence,I could still see her in my dreams and it felt real.people keep saying you're going to get over this,How?,how will I?
My whole world turned upside down,I began leaving a life she never wanted me to,I met a guy,went visiting and then he took it,yes he took it because I gave it willing,I thought that was the best way to show him I love him back and that changed me.
© Barbara dreams
