Oh no another bitter kind of feeling comes my way.....

but this time it feels different
it is about something else
the wrong kind of feeling...
i am immediately telling myself to calm down but the head , the head , its not listening...
it starts to generate fear and oh the pain is getting difficult to handle..

its like... I am stuck in a place of thousands of humans and not able to move properly.....
But... only the other humans are my thoughts..

aagh
I cannot seem to find a way...
nobody understood the pain i felt that day...

oh a big wave of emotions comes
it might take me away.

i pray to god that please help me through this feeling as it may conquer my emotions and take me through the pain...

this feeling is different..
the head, its aching
the heart is beating faster than usual..
my body is not reacting..

and oh did i forget about the pain?
i want to die right now than to ever feel this obnoxious pain... but uhh i am scared

scared of life , scared of the world, scared of responsibilities , scared of trusting anyone...
i cannot stop...

this feeling ..... is different
it makes me wanna die


© aarushi-