I fake a smile every day, just to make it thru the day. I tell myself I love u, But it's nothing new.I have so much self doubt, I hardly know what I'm about. Am I a liar, or telling the truth?
I burn with all this desire, But only for it to break, To break me from the start. I can't do anything right! I am filled with so much fright.
Scared to lose
Scared to win
Scared to be alone
But maybe it's come that time, That time to start anew. A fresh start...maybe
Maybe it will be alright, Maybe it won't
All I know is that I'm tearing apart everything that once was me
"I love u" he says
Is it just another gag? Another time just to not be alone Or a rebound no one wants to admit
Or can it be true love?I hardly know what that is any more. Day by day my soul feels like it just shatters more and more. Why can't my demons just leave me be? Leave me to the misery or leave me to be happy! I wanna stay but a nagging in the back of my mind says that u will be better off without me. Living how u wanna, without my dumb ass pulling ya down. We all know that ppl don't want this to happen... When I answered ur question a month ago I never thought it would get this far. This far with so many arguments in such a short amount of time. I do love u...I love u alot, but I think the universe may have another thing I'm store for me and u.
I'm sorry this rant is long but I had to get it off my chest before I exploded
© Lavina Rose