I wanna learn how to dance
I wanna sway along these waters
even when the waves are too big
and you don't think I stand a chance
I wanna learn how to dance

I wanna learn how to fight
for myself, against these demons
that haunt me late at night
I want to see the hand that feeds me
and tell myself not to bite
Keep running when I'm tired
through the tunnel and catch the light
I wanna learn how to fight

I don't wanna fucking die again
cause I've seen hell and I've seen heaven
and standing in the fire
ain't as bad as having no answers to the prayers that I've been sending
I've taken punches to the face
and knives to the chest
But I promise that I'll give this life everything I have
if I know that I'll never die again

So, please, don't run

Take your hand off of that door
Scream at me until your throat is sore
Feast on my heart until it's no more
And if you wanna know how much soul is left in me
Well, there's none
But, baby, please don't run

Jazz when I'm settled down
Springsteen when I'm drunk
Me and these apartment walls
hate it when you're gone
I smoke too many cigarettes when you're not around
You've been missing way too long
Baby, I just hope you didn't run

I wanna start sleeping through the night
But 3AM and 4AM come around
and I lay there shaking, gripping the sheets tight
cause there are things inside my head
Memories and monsters that never settled quite right
and they won't let me sleep through the night

It seems like happiness is impossible
like trying to catch smoke
But I wanna be like the characters
at the end of a picture show
whose smiling faces glow
and crystal clear eyes shine
like a midday, summer sun
But the pressure on my shoulders
feels like it weighs more than a ton
There's a fire in my belly
and a hurricane in my lungs
I feel like a book of matches
burnt down to its last one
and baby, I swear I wouldn't blame you
if you decided you had to run