Wanting to die does not mean
I do not want to live.
It's just that...
sometimes,
the thought of dying --
makes me feel more alive.

I forgot to care about my problems.
Why would I care about them?
If I know my life's about to end anyway?

A sense of comfort through dark thoughts.
Who would ever imagine?
It can cure me for a while.
For a moment.

I'm tired of enduring the pain.
I don't want to mind anymore.
So,
for this moment,
I wish to die.
Just for a moment.
So that I would be able to live --
for more seconds.


#writepoem #darkthoughts
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