#WritcoPoemPrompt54
I feel my heart is wrenching and ask myself is it all worth it? The pain... the crying... the anguish...
I have been enduring for so long and now it has become an habit
habit of telling myself that it's okay
habit of pretending to be alright when I know I'm not
Everytime my heart wrenches I tell myself it will get better
a little bit more and more
but now I question every bit of my decision
why am I enduring so much
why am I punishing myself for things which I'm not even sure about
It's an endless spiral of doughts which now has become a part of me
even if I want eacape I still choose the suffering so I end up again lying to myself with same endless doughts whose answer I might know but I'm scared to confront.