WHEN IT ENDS
BY C WYNTER

I got myself in trouble here, when your texts have me smiling,
Feeling a rush throughout my body and I can no longer hide it,
It sucks big time, I never thought I would ever be like this,
It's not that I'm in love with you but man, I fell hard into that kiss,
It scares me when u listen, for that's the way to get me,
It's terrifying how you understand, and just let things be,
I am so expressive towards you, I have never been before,
You have created a safe place for me and damn do I want more,
But you see, you Don't like me as I do you, it's rather obvious,
I wish I could stop these emotions, but I'm past being cautious,
Its gonna hurt you know?, when you finally call it to end,
I will be losing a possible partner, man, I will be losing a great friend,
And whenever I try to distance myself, it never works out,
And I really hate how I let you in a bit, now all I have are doubts,
Am I good enough? to keep you in the moment?, right here?
Or am I just filling the space for someone else? that you'd rather there?
But I can't stop these feelings, I have to let them run their course,
I am built this way and it's tiring, it fills me with remorse,
Man, I let myself be vulnerable, and it scares me to death,
But the day will come when you leave, I wait on strangled breath,
Oh, this will hurt, but I don't know what else to do,
it's a suicide attempt, when you don't like me, as much as I like you.

© C.Wynter