I walk with alot of fear and issues
I’m still wiping tears from my past
I still need a tissue
I promised myself i’d never become you
Now I use drugs to not blow a fuse
Instead of talking I choose to misuse
I do drugs to avoid facing my issues
Mental frozen like a tundra
My heart icier than a igloo
I turned into my father
An angry man consumed by his issues
Just know I hold zero resentment
Just want you to know that Im fucked up
You were misusing your influence
Nowadays I still tell myself I’m so damn stupid
For years you had me think I’m incompetent
But you’re a good dad
You got me haircuts and kicks
I stayed dressed up in alot of nice shit
Too bad I didn’t always get your kindness
I could never speak up for myself
Just had to bow down to your highness
Our father son relationship was so damn toxic
If you didnt realize that, I hope you do now
If not then you gotta be psychotic
I only wanted a dad
But god gave me an alcoholic
Who had his own demons
They probably haunted you with nonsense
I value our relationship
Just wish it was less toxic

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By: SilenceTheKidd
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