Maybe I deserve all this pain!
Always feel like I’m just circling the drain!
Too many things going on inside my brain!

Everyday trying to be the same person I’ve always been getting so much harder to maintain!
Every dark thought of feeling like you’re never good enough getting harder and harder to contain!
I keep on trying but don’t know if I can escape or break that chain!

My mind doesn’t want another mental war again!
How many times will these demons try to convince me to take a blade to a vein?
I tell them back off, stay in your own lane!

Maybe I go stand out in a thunderstorm and the rain!
Maybe I’ve finally lost myself and gone thoroughly insane!
Put me out of my misery it’s more humane!

Don’t know how much more my mind can handle!
No, I’m not some wicked vandal!
Maybe I’m ready to blow out my life’s withering and melting candle!

Inside my mind I’m always just silently screaming!
Somewhere I know the devil he’s scheming!
A devilish smile upon his face he’s beaming!

Am I someone that even has any meaning?
My mind says no or so it’s seeming!
Someone wake me up from this never ending nightmare and tell me that I’m only just dreaming!

The demons continue to keep me from proceeding!
My progress they keep impeding!
I never feel like expectations I’m exceeding!

That dark place I can’t continue feeding!
All these thoughts inside can be so misleading!
For each step forward it’s three steps I keep receding!

I’ll never be worth succeeding!
I’m begging and I’m pleading!
Someone please stop the bleeding!
© BDawg90