Since he left me there's like this weird silence hanging in the air
I don't even know if anyone knows
Because no one says a word
Or even mentions his name
Like they think I'd break down
Fall apart right there
Almost no one's even given me any sympathy
Like they just think it's only my fault
Already taking his side
Since I always mess everything up

And no one will ever see it from my side anyway
And it's my fault I gave him chance after chance
Just to do the same thing again
Just to treat me in the same way
As I wasted away
Broken

But now I'm free
I said I couldn't live without him but I'm slowly doing it
Slowly getting better and better at doing it
At getting over him
I can live without him
And I will have to live without him

It's not love if it's forced
It should come natural
Something you can never let go
Never push away
But this was possible for us
So you tell me
You answer that question
Was it love?
Maybe
I thought it was
But now we're at the end
Left with all the questions,
Questions we shall never answer for ourselves
So I don't know
Maybe we were confused
Maybe it just wasn't meant to be
Maybe
But I could feel it
Some of the only things I could
Through the numbness
Were with you so you tell me
Was it love?
Or was I just delusional
Just trying to fill a void,
A void I'm still stuck in
© Somehuman




Sun, April 14th 12:51 PM 2024