Yesterday i had a dream,
But i realized a cat has nine lives
I was the cat in my own life,
Cause no matter how hard,
I tried to end it,it was all in vain
Every time i swallowed the pills,
The doctor always came in time
Every time i splitted my wrists,
He was my guardian angel to save me

But yesterday i met him,
The man i always craved to visit
A wise man just like the serpent
Innocent man like a dove
Calm like the oceans
But everyone hated him like a roaring fire
But i didn't find any reason to hate him

He welcomed me to his home,
He made me happy,for the first time i felt happy
I didn't remember what hapiness felt like,
But i felt happy after a long time of being sad
For the first time i felt the sense of belonging
I felt free from the pain

He held my hand,i wished to take my final breathe
So he could slowly hold me in his arms as i slowly fade away
I remember when i met life,
He told me i was useless,worthless,unwanted
But when i craved for death
Death comforted me and told me when my time comes
I can stay with him in his warm house filled with hapiness and love
But before i left he only had one request
"Can we be friends?"




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