I dreamt I was happy
oh, I lie! not even in my dreams
my mind would let me be.
I ache, my body remembers
all times it was too frozen to flee
it shows me the heaviness I carry
I cant seem to ever relax...
Sadness weightens my chest
I give into it, more of the times
I cannot fight.
I call myself a loser
counting the battles I lost
my bitterness uses this to forget
the times I won the wars with myself.

© alysriver