i'm fine being alone
in open fields
with sun shining bright
butterflies lingering
on the flowers
and trees dancing in the breeze
at rhythm.

i'm also fine being around
both, people i know
and don't.

i like this world
for it's immense pleasurable
nature
and openness
the rivers flowing at their pace
the wind breezing at it's speed
the thunders lightening with its energy.

but;
i get sick
when i'm trapped in closed rooms
with no or too many people.
i can't breath
my lungs ready to give up
my heart racing a marathon
and body sweating out
all it's hydration.

yes, i'm claustrophobic
not only with closed places
but also with the people's minds
with narrow thoughts.

maybe
i suffocate.
i try to breath.
i try to survive.
but
lose the hope of living.

~ is it an irrational fear after all?

© Rajvik