My mind is a poison
but the mind is also the antidote.
I've been thinking about it many times.
Cursing the world, blaming life –
the worst part is giving up.

If life is a joke to me
then why am I not laughing?
heaving a sigh of regret
throat aches holding the words
I want to say.

I want to disappear and
be invincible for a day
to be forgotten and be on my own
hiding in my thick and rusty shell
be myself with no judgments
and expectations.

If life is luxury then why
I felt like it's a torture and I was defeated?
He has no choice but to continue living
until demise finally take you.

Trouble against trouble
I am no exception.
I am craving for a glimpse of hope
tho hope is fleeting;
couldn't catch it if you blink.

Grasping my mere candle of faith
until it melts I'll raise it
and find my way to the place I belong.
holding until I reach the end of the tunnel.
not afraid of darkness
'cause darkness is the only thing
thriving inside me.

© MapofEmi