All I can remember
Is us planning scary and weird things
That we never did, never had the chance
If we ever had, we let it slide
My brain telling me we were to last
How I hoped
Unfortunately, forever wasn't ours

It pains when
I no longer remember you
Or your name
Or your voice
Not even your face
The prettiest face in my world
Became extinct
I seem to have a blurry vision
Of who you were
I can't connect the dots
Of who you were
I don't know you anymore
Did I even know you?

The collections in my gallery vanished
Into thin air, I watch them disappear
My well organised art gallery
In my head
No longer exists
Seems like it never was
Surprises me
Cause I built it for over a year

Every trace of us was erased
With none of our memories in my head
I write as an illusion that we existed
And we faded
Reset to default
Never to recognize ourselves no more
We never were in my head
Were we a fantasy?

Should I be happy or cry
I don't know
Ask me why
Cause we never existed
Did we?

It pains me, aches
I loathe to admit that I hate and love the transition
Seems like I lost control over my emotions
No, I'm in control
Like I've always been
I'm I?

It ends now!
Tonight I drink a glass of exquisite wine
Celebration of a new collection
To us being strangers
Even though we already were
I have no knowledge of;
What you were, what we had
I shall drink
As I drink and remember the taste of this wine
I will try to picture my thoughts
Try joining the blurry images
Run over and over again
And remember
Lies, I wouldn't
I cannot
If I want them back would it be of any use
Or cause me more damage than it already has
Goodbye stranger

© dolph.thee.poet