I tasted sadness,
Even before I saw your eyes
They were balls swimming in burning lakes,
Overwhelmed.

Who drinks such cold coffee?
So black, so bottomless,
Colder than the icicles that line an igloo
Freezing my veins,
I felt so much when you grabbed my face
Breathing fire down my throat
Melting, my blood flows so smoothly now
I warm you up
I'm your morning cup of cocoa
Settling in your wintered stomach.

You cried gasoline into my chest,
Causing a fire to erupt in my ribcage
It's burn so hot, it hurts
But I didn't push you away
I held you tightly
You let me fall apart like your old house,
And your eyes mirrored that same fear ten years ago
It all came back to that one moment
Smoke and sirens, and tar painted your cheeks like some warrior
You're so brave, I admire you
Death never looked so pretty
Tied around their burning skeletons,
And you saw me the same way,
You let me go.

How did I see all this from the feel of your hands,
The portals in your sockets are mesmerising
I drowned into their deepness,
In a blink of an eye, I was erased like I never existed
I never existed, our fingers disconnected
Your tie was less wonky,
I didn't smell like your strawberry shampoo
You didn't look at me, you didn't fall for me.


"One black please"
I really just wanted plain coffee
You didn't have to complicate things,
Stiring till I had a cappuccino
Rippled with saturnine.



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