You were there when life was hard
Living without the regard
Making art
I wanna live in your fridge?
You notice anything I did?
My mom did too much, for me to be this stupid
Hate on me bitch
I care more than they did
No kid a family could miss
Talk shit
I just exist
For every man that tried
Deserved more than each an every lie
If I hope you find a better guy?
Will you stop threatening my peace of mind
You're no peace of mine
Just what they need in their life
I don't want you to hurt, you're more important to me than being right
I'd settle for talking to you till you fell asleep
I know it's just addled paranoia, I wonder if people merely act sweet?
Give you enough rope to hang yourself, even in that state I knew there was more to you
After all, who else knew "I was gonna get that ball"?
Try as they might
I don't want nothing that lives in the shadow of your light
They think if they do someone else's shadow work, they're exempt from treating people right?
Wish I paced myself an remembered more instead of asking about it the next night
That's life
You experience love even in it's foolish one sided light an vanishes before the sun comes out
8 years later an a night I can barely recall is still on mind
Maybe you'll see that recollection sometime, an understand I wouldn't waste your time acting kind
I lived under a fluorescent light
Indicating the passing of time
My imagination used to make me fear the dark
Now I enjoy it
Guess incarceration made me gracious for the little shit
Enjoying that freedom
Was enough for people to treat me dumb?
Have you ever been a home, without one?
Have you ever looked for respect where there was none?
I'm sure you have at some point
How they inspire you an disappoint me
Is the different ways we acknowledge artistry
Trying to show you how much you mean to me
Trying to be the person they have to see
I do that for my children
They're always at the forefront of my mind
You can visit anytime
They got big hearts just like mine
Something most would discard half the time
Yet if you look close enough you'll find
Just how much I did with so little time
Between every assault, I wanted respect it's entirely my fault
I'm not a victim
Tell them why I leave, a true admission
Using the words I say, was the only reason she'd ever listen
If you cared, you'd done more than mention supervision
I'm gonna get supervised visits because I hurt from the moments her lies made me miss
When a man cares enough about his children to be pissed
Miserable bitches can't explain shit, all they can do is ruin anyone else's relationship
Put them on game, showed them what manipulation looked like Yet they moved the same
An I'm the one to blame
Cause I don't deserve to see my kids, or expect her to change
You see I wouldn't have half the problems working with anyone that cared enough to reciprocate the same
I'm thankful for how it turned out, maybe you'll begin to hear me out
If not another woman will, regardless of the route I hope you feel my love still
It could only do more than energy could or ever will
No where near
Yet you still feel
To me it only increased in its appeal
No one should feel so alone, they question whether loves real
I told my brother I didn't need it
I wonder if you see me at all, I notice if I don't talk specifically about you
You pay no attention at all
Show some effort
I remember when she cheated on me while I did what I could to support
These days love feels like something they'll just extort
I lost jobs with valiant effort
Cussing racist bitches out, I can't work at steak an shake now
How an why?
She would let me make food all the time
An charge anyone that looked different than her
I couldn't listen to rap around her
"She just didn't like it"
All they talk about is drugs, have you ever listened?
You'd see why I thought your preferences were fucking dumb
When your employer doesn't think you work hard enough to deserve food at the very least
You wonder how the hell they maintain a business treating their employees like shit?
I'm sure a sandwich a piece won't touch the profit
I finally snapped after countless examples of ignorant bullshit
Shitting on your employees does the opposite of yielding a profit
Lying about wages, just so you think to work at one of their places
15 on indeed
12 you'll actually see
Most of them didn't work hard enough to look at me funny
Her guilt made it evident
She would leave me for whatever amount of money
You didn't have to do that say hello honey
An she'll be best person you know till she gets angry
Then you'll see where her head's at actually










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